Old and New (Actually Sideways)

Finally, it happens, After ten years and a half (minus one year of fence hopping, another one half effectively unemployed) I step out of the door. After spending the last four months knocking at the doors, I finally get an open one, actually not far off the fence, another hopping. It's funny how I used to sit down there some times ago, how I have been asked to cross several times, and then tried to knock that same door, twice.I almost believe the door has been closed for good. But I believe it will happen eventually, if it's really meant to be. Still, it's gonna be a brand new day, maybe the last stop. Sometimes the one thing you have been looking for is actually right in front of you the whole time.

Another Year Lost

 Here comes another year, I barely noticed. Everything has changed so fast and drastic, somehow it becomes normal, a new normal so they said. Life still goes on while I have to stand still, even pushed backward. I still can't believe that everything that happened these past two years, and somehow I'm still here, barely survived. I have lost my job, friends, family members, self esteem, and dignity, or what's left of it. Maybe enough to prepare me for another lost year. Nothing will surprise me from now on. We are all just waiting in line after all... ( and life is just another drinking session, it is said)