Back (for Good...?)

Today, I'm told to be back to my office at BTC-BPPT, good old TeleMatics, starting next month. It justifies all my conscious all these months. All questions about my status, my salary, and my not fitting in this office has been answered. I'll be back in  couple of days. Just when I've already fitted in... the environment. Well, just another chapter of my life. I'll be haunted by the lack of hardware, slow internet (strangled bandwidth), and late office hour. Not counting my increasing tasks and declining productivity...in web updating I mean. I look forward to it, after all, that is what I'm paid for. That's what I'm worth for. I can't wait....

There Goes My Telly...(snif)

When I came back from work (and the storm) yesterday, I found my room was neat and clean. The bed sheet is new, and ... where is my telly? It used to be right in the corner of my room. It's gone now. Well, there goes my only entertainment. I don't know where it went,and I don't care. Now there's not a reson to comehome early. Guess I miss my PC very badly now...

Legally Alien

Q : Do you speak English?
A : Little-Little sih I can

Q : Do you understand ?
A : Yes,I stand under you

Q : Are you alright ?
A : No what-what

Q : Are you crazy ?
A : Yes, Yes, Yes...eh No Ding!

New Year, New Look, New Spirit

Originally, I want to kill this blog because of my addict of web presences. If you consider 3 websites (personal) and 6 blogs are too much, then I must be overkill. But then, I realize that I need some breakout, to express some thoughts in a language that not many people (in my country) understand, and yet manage to confuse the native speakers of English with this level of fluency. So I decide to continue this blog as of 2006 and change the name and design to refresh my spirit. I hope I can update this blog more frequently, but we'll never know what might happen...

New Office, Same Paycheck

It's been a month since my moving to the new office. Everything changes, from the route to work, the transportation vechile, longer walk to the office, the time to arrive and go home (slightly change), the workplace, the workbuddies, the infrastructure, places to eat, but one thing still remains...the paycheck (sadly).

My First Day at Work

Just follow the path, flow like the river. That's all I can say when I finally got my first job. Not the very first, though. I used to work at Teloer Internet Cafe back in 1999 for 9 months. Now I'm back at work after six months unemployed.

Leaving Pondok Gede

I'm leaving today, my bags are packed and got my ticket already. Funny, I leave some stuff here, but I'm not sure I'm coming back soon. Guess I'll be home soon and almost for good. The last time I leave, I always sure I'm coming back, but this time I don't. I never belong to my home, I never feel belong to Semarang. I always moved from one town to another ever since I graduate from highschool. I thought I have found what I'm looking for in Bandung, but it's not, thought I did in Jogjakarta, but it's not. I still look for it here. I don't know, I have never been this frustrated all my life, even when I was dropped out of school in Bandung, when I was broke down after that, six months in Semarang. And now here I am, single, jobless, and broke. And I always did what I did when I'm stressed, go for a walk (on foot) to nowhere, which I did yesterday. I can't use my bike because it's broke down, once again, and I lost my patience to fix it. I was kind of numb, angry, and pity for myself. That's how I survived all these years. And when people start talking about money, dignity, marriage, and obligation and family honor, I started to choke, kind of suicidal tendencies. I never did anything to embarras my family, but maybe I did, so many times. And I'm tired of trusting, hoping, waiting, and even dreaming of anything concern with all oft hose things. People only believes what they see, and if not, what they think, or maybe they just take it just too easy. But still, I got to have faith, why should I?

Rain in May

It's not May yet, but it's raining. The rain starts as I leave campus after the thesis examinantion this afternoon and stops just when I step into my room. After 10 years of college, I finally graduated.

Link Your Mind

Check out my personal website http://www.ad-12.tk and my other website http://www.lawnosta.tk

Finally Here

My new PC is finally here, after spending 6 months to build, starting from scratch.